Warning; Venting in Progress
I'm really kinda stressed out right now. I've been putting off my online history class and now I'm a few weeks behind. I've got a presentation for my Japanese class that I should've started a few days ago, and I can't seem to focus on it right now. Both of those things are totally my fault. I've just haven't been feeling up do doing anything lately. I've been thinking of dropping out, at least for a while to gather my self, but I'd end up waiting a whole year to take the next level of Japanese. I haven't called back my doctor's office for my 6 month follow up and a1c test. I'm afraid I'll end up walking out of the appointment with an anti-depressant prescription. I haven't even been playing any of my lefty guitars; I thought if I started trying to play again I'd feel better, but I can't bring myself to play more than a few minutes at a time. I just feel empty at work, at home I've been trying to keep myself distracted with anime, which I find myself disinterested in and video games that have started to randomly piss me off when I make the slightness mistake I end up eating too much, probably on the borderline of binge eating. I think it's because of the same need to distract myself. Now my car just freaking gives out on me at a stop sign. Had to get it towed home. It refuses to turn on, I'm guessing it's something electrical. I bought a scan tool online, just gotta wait till I get it so I can stress about fixing it. Also my mom decided to move back to California to be closer to her family, but doesn't want to tell my brother until it's more certain. I'm thinking of dropping everything to work more hours or get a second gig in order get this damn house in a sellable condition. I might still take Japanese class though. It just scares the shit out of me because I don't feel like I can handle things as they are now. I just want to sleep all the time, but then I feel like life's passing me by.
End: Vent
tl;dr:I feel empty.
