My life has been pretty messy, which is part of the reason I flipped a shit and bounced. I found a really cute guy and while we're probably never going to be anything more than friends, having such an intense crush and fantasizing about him being my boyfriend has been extremely validating...
Mostly I've been really introspective, even more than usual. Finding out who I am, really. I'm way far off but this guy has helped me put stuff in perspective massively. I'm not kidding when I say there is a good chance I'd be dead without him.
A bunch of my old bullies' families are helping reroof the house right now and I'm feeling really, really shitty.