So... I just found out I've paid about 10 grand on my car and my balance on the loan has only gone down like a thousand. I've been behind a payment and a half and been trying to catch up but shit happens everytime I get extra monies. The loan isn't even in my name, I was just blindly paying the bill, without seeing the statements. I had no idea. I was expecting to get pwnd by late fees and interest to an extent, but this is just freaking ridiculous.
I seriously considered dying today, two years working hard jobs and for what a thousand bucks? I went through a lot these last few years and I've lost everything I never even had. At least I had paid a good chunk of this loan, that was the only consolation that I gave myself. I was going to trade it in with my tax monies next year for something more suited to the way my driving has developed.
I guess I'll won't get a toyobaru anytime in the foreseeable future.
It's been five years being a useless kid, 12 years learning everything I never wanted to, four years NEET and two years working hard labor, I've gained nothing and lost everything.
I want to die.